It's fall and unlike California we actually get a fall here. We have had tons of rain this year and in just the last week the leaves had started changing color. This is something I love about the east coast.
I feel as if God is continuelly testing us over and over and I am becoming weary. We are 2 weeks behind on our rent I have 20 bucks to my name and I needed a job 3 weeks ago. Rob obviously has some nerve damage from the surgery that put him back to bed today. I'm sitting by the phone waiting for this job to call me back that I really really want. It makes me sick to think I might not get it and I want it so bad. Stress has made my stomach upset and I have started coughing like crazy.
I know that all this is preparation for the field and putting complete trust in the Lord. I have complete confidence that He will provide. I'm just human and can't help but tell God to hurry up and remind Him that I have tithed everything he has provided. Weary? you say. I'm tired of the testing and asking Him to stop. It is certainly taking it's toll on me. I almost feel old. Am I complaining no just sharing how I feel.
Even with all this going on my son Robby reminds me to keep "singing in the rain". He sings like an Angel and he'll sing "Lord I lift your name on high" or "little drummer boy" and pretty soon all five of us are singing even Jason tries to sing. It humbles me. When I have a short fuze or I'm frusterated or just tired my 7 year old brings me back to what it is all about. I am looking forward to the holiday season. At the same time I miss my new naz family. I am looking forward to robs family traditions that have always been the same and amazing. I can't wait for my kids to experience it as well. I think I am done with this blog and I've given my hurt and I am glad I have such an awesome family.
Lord put your hand on us and help us out of this rut. Thank you for your faithfulness and thank you ahead of time for what you are providing us! We love you and we serve you with our lives! Thank you for our marriage our children and shine FM that we wake up to every morning!
AMEN!
I feel as if God is continuelly testing us over and over and I am becoming weary. We are 2 weeks behind on our rent I have 20 bucks to my name and I needed a job 3 weeks ago. Rob obviously has some nerve damage from the surgery that put him back to bed today. I'm sitting by the phone waiting for this job to call me back that I really really want. It makes me sick to think I might not get it and I want it so bad. Stress has made my stomach upset and I have started coughing like crazy.
I know that all this is preparation for the field and putting complete trust in the Lord. I have complete confidence that He will provide. I'm just human and can't help but tell God to hurry up and remind Him that I have tithed everything he has provided. Weary? you say. I'm tired of the testing and asking Him to stop. It is certainly taking it's toll on me. I almost feel old. Am I complaining no just sharing how I feel.
Even with all this going on my son Robby reminds me to keep "singing in the rain". He sings like an Angel and he'll sing "Lord I lift your name on high" or "little drummer boy" and pretty soon all five of us are singing even Jason tries to sing. It humbles me. When I have a short fuze or I'm frusterated or just tired my 7 year old brings me back to what it is all about. I am looking forward to the holiday season. At the same time I miss my new naz family. I am looking forward to robs family traditions that have always been the same and amazing. I can't wait for my kids to experience it as well. I think I am done with this blog and I've given my hurt and I am glad I have such an awesome family.
Lord put your hand on us and help us out of this rut. Thank you for your faithfulness and thank you ahead of time for what you are providing us! We love you and we serve you with our lives! Thank you for our marriage our children and shine FM that we wake up to every morning!
AMEN!
