What if your healing comes thru tears? What if a thousand sleepless nights is what it takes to know your near?
What is contentment?
How do you be content in a bad situation?
If you know what changes need to be made to become content how do you accomplish those changes?
In philippians 4:11 Paul says that he has learned to be content in whatever state he is in. I having trouble understanding how he did it. How did he come to a place where he was content at being in prison or being ship wrecked? How did he become content being in the trials he faced. Rob and I knew that these trials we are facing right now would bring blessings at the end. They always do. The Lord however I believe is trying to teach me something a lot different this time and these are the questions he is asking me plus others. I'm asking Him So many questions and I feel he is humbling me. I have so many questions I feel I have no time to listen to his answer. I feel like I get 1 question answered and then 10 more pop up. God has laid on my heart many changes that need to be made and feel he is wanting me to take action and prepare my heart mind and soul for the changes he has in store for my family . The meeting we have at the camp is coming upon in just a few short weeks. God has called me to fast and pray. I'm not going to tell you what I am fasting and or how long because I don't want to be boastful. I am only writing this so that you know that My Faith is being challenged in a possitive way. If you want to pray for me know that God is humbling me and in doing so he is going to prepare me body, mind, and spirit for the changes ahead. I am going to use this time with the Lord to have Him help me change my devotion habits. My main purpose is that I need to focus on Him and there are things I need to listen too that He wants to teach me. I will be writing as I go through this journey to tell you what God reveals to me. Last time I fasted I did it along with my church. God revealed to me a lot about myself. This Time He wants me to so that I may Learn more about Him and His plan for me and my family. Robert has agreed with me and is prayerfully supporting me through this. I have also asked him to be open minded if God gives me His answers to my questions during my times of prayer. He agreed so pray that this is a time of growth for all of us. If you have questions feel free to message me on FB. Your prayers are gratefully appreciated.
Sunday, June 24, 2012
Thursday, June 21, 2012
Hush little baby don't say a word.......
Mama's gonna buy a mocking bird.
Remember that song?
8 years ago today I became a mother. Robby's pregnancy was tough. I showed really quickly and immediately started gaining weight. My last weigh in before he was born showed that I gained around 100lbs.
At 20 weeks I was put on medication and bed rest because my blood pressure was going up. I saw the dr. way more then the average pregnancy and at some point I was monitored 2-3 times a week to make sure that everything was going well with both of us. Rob and I were so excited and scared at the same time. At 7 months my sisters in law threw me a huge baby shower and I had no idea. 35 women from the church were there and most of them I didn't even know at the time. It was amazing and something I will never forget. At 34 weeks they had me start going to get sonograms to check my amnionic fluid every week.
At 38 weeks we realized that my blood pressure was once again not coming down and they decided that it was time to induce labor. We went in on Friday and I was so excited because I thought we may have a baby before fathers day. (Mom and dad were in California and we were in Md. and they were getting ready to leave to come out here. ) I asked Karrie, Robert's sister to step in and help in place of my mother. I was very excited and nervous and oh so swollen. I had Hobbit feet and wow was I uncomfortable. I was so ready. They started me on pitosin and cervadil and I had a few contractions here and there but nothing. So they upend the pitosin and that was the routine for the next 48 hours. I just did not want to go into labor. The dr. came in and said "ok you are only dialated to 1 I'm going to try to break your water but if I can't do it then we will have to do a c section." Amazingly enough it worked and soon there after the labor started. However when the contractions started, the build up of pitosin in my body caused me to have a constant contraction for 2 hours. It was horrible so against my better judgement I got an epidural. It totally knocked me out and I slept for 9 hours then when I woke up that morning I was dialated to 8. I went into transition and became sick and Karrie held my bucket. 2 hours later I was at a 9 and a half they waited 2 hours and I didn't go beyond that and the midwife called the dr. He said it was soft enough to push through so I started pushing. I pushed for 2 hours and was so tired and starting to doubt myself when Robert got excited and said "Doll I can see his head!" I than focused on Robert's face I tuned everything out. It was only Rob and I in the room and I'll never forget the tears glistening in his eyes and his whole face smiling. Thats all I needed to get me through those last couple pushes. Robby was beautiful and they let everyone in to see him right after I was cleaned up. Robert Edward Moore The 3rd, 8lbs 3ozs 21 inches long and very fine blonde hair. He made me a mom. My parents then left to come visit we stayed in the hospital for 3 days and it took that long to get Robby to eat. Because he hadn't eaten jaundice filled his little body and the day we were sent home they called us back because his numbers had climbed to high and he was under lights for a few days. We were discharged the same day my parents arrived and it was amazing to introduce all of them to not only to our new son but to my in law family too. He has always been a little man and so intuitive. In many things he has taken after my dad and I am glad. I love him. It's a blessing to be his mom.
I love you Robby Happy Birthday! Thank you Karrie for being there I am so glad you got to help in such a miracle.
Remember that song?
8 years ago today I became a mother. Robby's pregnancy was tough. I showed really quickly and immediately started gaining weight. My last weigh in before he was born showed that I gained around 100lbs.
At 20 weeks I was put on medication and bed rest because my blood pressure was going up. I saw the dr. way more then the average pregnancy and at some point I was monitored 2-3 times a week to make sure that everything was going well with both of us. Rob and I were so excited and scared at the same time. At 7 months my sisters in law threw me a huge baby shower and I had no idea. 35 women from the church were there and most of them I didn't even know at the time. It was amazing and something I will never forget. At 34 weeks they had me start going to get sonograms to check my amnionic fluid every week.
At 38 weeks we realized that my blood pressure was once again not coming down and they decided that it was time to induce labor. We went in on Friday and I was so excited because I thought we may have a baby before fathers day. (Mom and dad were in California and we were in Md. and they were getting ready to leave to come out here. ) I asked Karrie, Robert's sister to step in and help in place of my mother. I was very excited and nervous and oh so swollen. I had Hobbit feet and wow was I uncomfortable. I was so ready. They started me on pitosin and cervadil and I had a few contractions here and there but nothing. So they upend the pitosin and that was the routine for the next 48 hours. I just did not want to go into labor. The dr. came in and said "ok you are only dialated to 1 I'm going to try to break your water but if I can't do it then we will have to do a c section." Amazingly enough it worked and soon there after the labor started. However when the contractions started, the build up of pitosin in my body caused me to have a constant contraction for 2 hours. It was horrible so against my better judgement I got an epidural. It totally knocked me out and I slept for 9 hours then when I woke up that morning I was dialated to 8. I went into transition and became sick and Karrie held my bucket. 2 hours later I was at a 9 and a half they waited 2 hours and I didn't go beyond that and the midwife called the dr. He said it was soft enough to push through so I started pushing. I pushed for 2 hours and was so tired and starting to doubt myself when Robert got excited and said "Doll I can see his head!" I than focused on Robert's face I tuned everything out. It was only Rob and I in the room and I'll never forget the tears glistening in his eyes and his whole face smiling. Thats all I needed to get me through those last couple pushes. Robby was beautiful and they let everyone in to see him right after I was cleaned up. Robert Edward Moore The 3rd, 8lbs 3ozs 21 inches long and very fine blonde hair. He made me a mom. My parents then left to come visit we stayed in the hospital for 3 days and it took that long to get Robby to eat. Because he hadn't eaten jaundice filled his little body and the day we were sent home they called us back because his numbers had climbed to high and he was under lights for a few days. We were discharged the same day my parents arrived and it was amazing to introduce all of them to not only to our new son but to my in law family too. He has always been a little man and so intuitive. In many things he has taken after my dad and I am glad. I love him. It's a blessing to be his mom.
I love you Robby Happy Birthday! Thank you Karrie for being there I am so glad you got to help in such a miracle.
Sunday, June 17, 2012
Great is thy faithfulness....
An Incident happened here tonight that got me thinking about what would happen if Robert died tomorrow. I had plenty to worry about when Robert had come close to death a few times. This incident and fathers day being tomorrow brought all these feelings back once again.
I want take a minute and look at my mother in law right now. Her husband died at the age of 44 leaving behind 8 children the youngest being just a few months old. As a mother I look at her in awe and wonder. To continue to raise those kids and be both Dad and Mom at the same time as well as grieving the love of your life at the same time is unfathomable. Being a wife and mother I can't imagine what it would feel like to bring your children home from the doctor and not be able to tell their father how much they've grown. Sitting down at the table with your children and seeing His face on each one of theirs. My mother in law raised her children in the church and when it came to parenting those children the church was there the whole time lifting her up. She did everything she could even if it meant working 2 or 3 jobs. What I like about her is her humility. It was the job God gave her and she obeyed willingly. She did all she knew how and I look at her and wander if I would ever be half the woman she is, in those circumstances.
She raised sons without a man in the house to look to as an example. What do I want my boys to know about being a man if their father died tomorrow? He may have his own list but here is mine. Oh and this is the condensed version.
10) boys sleep with girls but a man looks for a woman that he can wake up to every morning for the rest of his life.
9)A man looks to other older men and asks for constructive criticism. So that he may make himself better.
8)A man never looses his temper in away that insults or disrespects others .
7)If a man does number 8 he apologizes even if he's right so that reconciliations can be made and grudges forgotten.
6)A man is only a man of the house if he is the oldest in the house or takes care of the entire house financially, spiritually, emotionally and and all the other LY's
5)A man knows when he is # 6 and when he is under authority that is to be respected. In work, in school, in life those that are even 2 seconds older than you are to be treated with respect. Using common manners is a good beginning. Know your place and respect the decisions of those that God has placed over you.
4) A man respects and loves his family finding their talents and helping them grow in those talents.
3)A man loves and respects 2 people above all others, his mother and his wife.
2)A man puts God first his spouse second and himself last. He takes the trials that is placed in his way and uses them to make him stronger. He stays faithful even if he questions God he still does not allow that to stand in the way of his faithfulness. He encourages those around him in their walk with Him.
1)He does all of these things knowing that God is the Great I Am. It doesn't matter how many degrees you have, how much money you make, how many children you have, how old you are or how much responsibility you may have.You are measured as a man by how you show humility, compassion, love, and respect to all of Gods creatures and How you glorify Him in all that you do.
I pray that God gives me the ability to parent my boys so that they understand these things. If I can instill these things in them. I will feel like I have raised my boys to be Godly men. After that God can then take them and use them for His glory where ever that may be.
I'm glad that my husband has all of these qualities some he had to learn on his own and some I still see him growing in. I love watching him evolve into the man God wants him to be it's beautiful.
Thank you mother Moore for raising me an awesome husband and awesome father. Thank you Robert for the love you give our children. A love that is no doubt much like what your own Dad gave his children. You share his name and his legacy and the man God is making you , your dad I'm sure is proud of.
I'm just grateful.
I want take a minute and look at my mother in law right now. Her husband died at the age of 44 leaving behind 8 children the youngest being just a few months old. As a mother I look at her in awe and wonder. To continue to raise those kids and be both Dad and Mom at the same time as well as grieving the love of your life at the same time is unfathomable. Being a wife and mother I can't imagine what it would feel like to bring your children home from the doctor and not be able to tell their father how much they've grown. Sitting down at the table with your children and seeing His face on each one of theirs. My mother in law raised her children in the church and when it came to parenting those children the church was there the whole time lifting her up. She did everything she could even if it meant working 2 or 3 jobs. What I like about her is her humility. It was the job God gave her and she obeyed willingly. She did all she knew how and I look at her and wander if I would ever be half the woman she is, in those circumstances.
She raised sons without a man in the house to look to as an example. What do I want my boys to know about being a man if their father died tomorrow? He may have his own list but here is mine. Oh and this is the condensed version.
10) boys sleep with girls but a man looks for a woman that he can wake up to every morning for the rest of his life.
9)A man looks to other older men and asks for constructive criticism. So that he may make himself better.
8)A man never looses his temper in away that insults or disrespects others .
7)If a man does number 8 he apologizes even if he's right so that reconciliations can be made and grudges forgotten.
6)A man is only a man of the house if he is the oldest in the house or takes care of the entire house financially, spiritually, emotionally and and all the other LY's
5)A man knows when he is # 6 and when he is under authority that is to be respected. In work, in school, in life those that are even 2 seconds older than you are to be treated with respect. Using common manners is a good beginning. Know your place and respect the decisions of those that God has placed over you.
4) A man respects and loves his family finding their talents and helping them grow in those talents.
3)A man loves and respects 2 people above all others, his mother and his wife.
2)A man puts God first his spouse second and himself last. He takes the trials that is placed in his way and uses them to make him stronger. He stays faithful even if he questions God he still does not allow that to stand in the way of his faithfulness. He encourages those around him in their walk with Him.
1)He does all of these things knowing that God is the Great I Am. It doesn't matter how many degrees you have, how much money you make, how many children you have, how old you are or how much responsibility you may have.You are measured as a man by how you show humility, compassion, love, and respect to all of Gods creatures and How you glorify Him in all that you do.
I pray that God gives me the ability to parent my boys so that they understand these things. If I can instill these things in them. I will feel like I have raised my boys to be Godly men. After that God can then take them and use them for His glory where ever that may be.
I'm glad that my husband has all of these qualities some he had to learn on his own and some I still see him growing in. I love watching him evolve into the man God wants him to be it's beautiful.
Thank you mother Moore for raising me an awesome husband and awesome father. Thank you Robert for the love you give our children. A love that is no doubt much like what your own Dad gave his children. You share his name and his legacy and the man God is making you , your dad I'm sure is proud of.
I'm just grateful.
Friday, June 8, 2012
As for me and my house we will serve the Lord.
Robert and I have been slackers and now we're paying for it.
A missionary once told my son Robby that he is teaching his daughters not only to obey but how to obey.
Immediately- right away
Completely- all of the job the right way
Willingly- with a happy heart and a smile
We started enforcing this into our everyday lives awhile ago. However with the change of living with Roberts mother and siblings we have slacked off as parents and now are paying for it. Robert and his brothers often insult each other as jokes and laugh about it because they think they are funny. This is something I parttake in occasionally i admit. However I am now hearing the same things come out of my 7 year old's mouth in the wrong context. In many cases it's out and out insulting. It my fault I take film credit. Now I am having to buckle down on my kids and myself and reteach them manners because I wasn't paying attention. I feel like a horrible parent because I screwed up. I want to raise my children surrounded in the gospel. I don't want to shield them from the world I want to prepare them for it. I want them to face everyday with God as their cornerstone. When they get up in the morning and get dressed I want them to put on the full armor of God. Do so So that they are aware of where evil is what it does what it looks like so that they may fight against it. I want to hear them singing praises to the Lord and giving thanks to Him everyday. I want them to know that Christianity is not easy but it is beautiful. I want them to look at Christ and want him on their own accord not just pray to pray. I want to make the Bible exciting so that we'll all want to read it more. Then I want them to want to share their own life story and how Jesus saved them I want them to become a testimony of Christ. I want them to love people like we do. I want my children to be on fire for Christ. I don't care what their profession is I just want to look back and say yeah I made mistakes but I was the parent I wanted to be. I love my Children I dedicated them to the Lord. Time to do it again this time in preparation for the mission field. Is that to much? I can strive for this can't I?
We have 6 weeks and then we meet the missionary and volunteer team at the camp in South West Pennsylvania.
I am so excited. Please be praying for us.
A missionary once told my son Robby that he is teaching his daughters not only to obey but how to obey.
Immediately- right away
Completely- all of the job the right way
Willingly- with a happy heart and a smile
We started enforcing this into our everyday lives awhile ago. However with the change of living with Roberts mother and siblings we have slacked off as parents and now are paying for it. Robert and his brothers often insult each other as jokes and laugh about it because they think they are funny. This is something I parttake in occasionally i admit. However I am now hearing the same things come out of my 7 year old's mouth in the wrong context. In many cases it's out and out insulting. It my fault I take film credit. Now I am having to buckle down on my kids and myself and reteach them manners because I wasn't paying attention. I feel like a horrible parent because I screwed up. I want to raise my children surrounded in the gospel. I don't want to shield them from the world I want to prepare them for it. I want them to face everyday with God as their cornerstone. When they get up in the morning and get dressed I want them to put on the full armor of God. Do so So that they are aware of where evil is what it does what it looks like so that they may fight against it. I want to hear them singing praises to the Lord and giving thanks to Him everyday. I want them to know that Christianity is not easy but it is beautiful. I want them to look at Christ and want him on their own accord not just pray to pray. I want to make the Bible exciting so that we'll all want to read it more. Then I want them to want to share their own life story and how Jesus saved them I want them to become a testimony of Christ. I want them to love people like we do. I want my children to be on fire for Christ. I don't care what their profession is I just want to look back and say yeah I made mistakes but I was the parent I wanted to be. I love my Children I dedicated them to the Lord. Time to do it again this time in preparation for the mission field. Is that to much? I can strive for this can't I?
We have 6 weeks and then we meet the missionary and volunteer team at the camp in South West Pennsylvania.
I am so excited. Please be praying for us.
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