"And step by step you'll lead me"

...And I will follow you all of my days"
I think this is my 3rd cold this winter and I'm getting really frustrated. It's made me think about warmer climates. What will it be like to live in an area of the world where it's between 65 & 85 all the time, all year around. I'm thinking about Sierra Leone more and more. The Lord is deffinately making this burden greater. I have started having the mind frame that I am not suppose to be here. Wether it's Africa or not working for the Lord is all I want to do. Oh I know I need to work, but I can't help but read about efforts around the world. Than I wonder when is it going to be me. When are you going to use these hands Lord, that I have committed to you for the rest of life?I think it's harder knowing what your suppose to do with your life and having to wait to do it, than not knowing at all. I itch with it all, I get so anxious. I also know that it God's timing and I have to be patient. I have to take it step by step. He will lead me and I am learning what trusting in Him really means. I think that I know where my heart is but my mind has been in turmoil. My realization is that Satan is the king of discouragement. Our doubt, our debates has been what for? Discouragement! It's time to have an understanding of what is my mind getting in the way of my Calling. Faith and Trust that nothing is impossible with God needs to be my crutch!

Lord take my hands and use them for you, here and where ever you are sending me! Give me the stamina to do what you want me to do, for my health, for a job, for my walk with you and for our calling to serve you. Amen