What a day!
When you get a text saying your husband collapsed in the bathroom of the movie theatre there are so many things that go through your mind. Him and his brother went and took Robby to see the new spiderman movie. It was a gift to Robby for his birthday. Robert wasn't feeling well and went to the restroom but before he could make it to a stall the world started spinning and his chest got tight. He leaned against the wall and then passed out. It ended up being to much flexeril.
Going through these trials has made me weary at times and tonight was one of those. You have no words, you have no tears, your mind goes numb, and you just want to go to sleep and wake up with life far better than it is. Tonight however has been a bit different. Robert and I have been reading "through the eye of the storm" by Max Lacado. We are about nine chapters in and he brought up a good point that I haven't thought of much. Most people think of Jesus as God but they rarely view him as a man. He was fully man just as much as God. He scraped his knees and fell out of trees. His voice squeaked when it changed and he probably got pimples. If he was a teenager today he'd probably go mountain biking and parasailing. He was fully Human and new what pain was. He lost his best friend and cousin to being beheaded. Oh how he must have grieved for him. How his heart must have ached for John. He was tempted by Satan for 40 days. In my weariness I wonder how weary he became. Not giving up just being tired to the bone of it all. That's how I felt but at the same time not giving up and letting Satan take over. We are suppose to leave in just 9 days and Satan does not want us to go. Its not just this thing with Rob there are so many obsticles popping up it's ridiculous. I know we will be victorious in the end. I am holding onto the promises. I am also calling it out for what it is. These trials have been difficult to bare but I know I am not carrying them alone. The greater the trial the more glorious the victory! Satan doesn't want us to do what we want to do. We want to serve the Lord that's it we want rely on Him completely. We are practicing this now but it will become easier to trust him as we serve Him longer. God has laid a burden on our hearts and we want to be his tool in bringing more brothers and sisters into the kingdom. God gave Jesus the same burden but on a much larger scale so he understands. He knows what it feels like. But he knows temptation and trials as well. He has been where I am now. There is a lot of comfort in knowing that I serve a God that knows. Pray with us as we try to overcome the evil one . Pray that we become stronger. Pray for wisdom.
Meg
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